You see I monitor inventory of semi conductors. If you are looking at this post on a smart phone chance are my company made sure the semi conductors necessary for its creation were in stock when it was fabricated. The thing is company's do not want too much of a semi conductor that may be outdated in a a week on hand so it is basically monitoring charts all day and arranging expedited shipping or delivery options when needed. It sucks.
Now before you just say "well just quit". The problem is I'm trapped. I get paid handsomely for what I do. Now I can see your argument if you just said take a cut and go elsewhere the problem is my signing and retention bonus. It has to be paid back 120% if I leave withing 5 years of my contract in which I am two years into.
So not only if I left would I only be able to make 1/2 my salary I would OWE over 3 times my salary back to the company. I do not have that exactly sitting in a bank or on a shelf, I would have to file chapter eleven or be sued. I just do not want to put my family through that.
I was thinking about my days post and it was so nice and brought back so many memories I did not even want to think of when I was in that realm instead of this one. I felt like it was a magical universe compared to the dreadful existence I am daily engulfed in it almost hurt to even remember it.
My whole trip to Amsterdam was the greatest. But my fourth day was what stood out as the best among great days. While White Cleopatra does not get stoned every day she was in the mood to smoke and have a good time. After waking up and going to pancakery for some delicious pancakes we headed to the leidseplein area. We walked around with the intention of finding some place just to lock ourselves into and smoking all day. I know lots of peoples on this forum may do this everyday in Amsterdam, but it was a big deal to us. We for whatever reason decided on the rockering (sp?) WE did not know what to order but wanted a "happy weed". When we saw "Laughing Buddha" on the menu, it was a done deal.
Simply put the ambiance and the weed were the best ever. We spent the day just sitting in a corner making chit chat or just observing the folks that came in and sat across from us. WC does not smoke that much and she was high as hell from the smoke. Maybe it was psychological and because of the name but she laughed her ass off the whole day we were sitting there smoking. We had a blast!
Now I'm back here. On top of it maybe you guys got me right. Maybe I am a racist. I realize 2/3 of the forum said essentially that. As I said I have a Korean daughter. On top of that I love Biggies Smalls and can recite every word from "Warning" by heart. My favorite baseball player is Eric Davis and my favorite football player is Barry Sanders. I thought all this made me not racist.
I asked the five dipshits I work with if they knew who Ann Frank was. Essentially they all laughed they thought I was joking. Of course they knew who she was. They knew waaay more about this kid than I did and I was walking through her kitchen.
That guy that likes Andrea 3000 got me thinking maybe I am just intolerant and don't even know it, hell half my co workers tell me that and I just say go to hell. Maybe I do have a problem if 2/3 of this forum says i do too.
Im stressed as hell to be honest with you. I love Amsterdam and the week i spent there was probably the best week in my life. I am handcuffed to a job I hate. We were watching one of those hostage hows and thought it was funny cause we are hostages too. You have to sign a bonus that is too good to be true right? Well this is what you get. A life in hell. And when you have a little girl with special needs you cant just use all the money to jet set all the time. You have limited time you can vacation and when you do you are thinking about your problems most of the time.
That is why I loved Amsterdam. It made me forget. Well sometimes it hurts to remember. This post it making me remember a lot of things and also realize some things I did not know.
Obviously I am very intolerant and did not even know it. I always thought if you watched the blacks and listened to the blacks and on top of it had a kid outside your race it showed you were not racist. Apparently some of my way i communicate and maybe even the way i believe is wrong.
I dreaded making this post because i knew it would remind me of the most fun day Ive had in the last ten years. Now it also is a reminder of some other things i need to sort out too,
Peace and Love
Peace and Love.
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