Just a Statement
Posted: Mon 30th Jul 2007 09:51 pm
I really want to say a big thank you to Mark_D I was really beginning to wonder if anyone on here had the courage to speak up on freedom of speech when all the mudslinging began I just have a real problem with crowds that just go along to get along and people are not allowed to speak their mind because what they say may not be popular.
In fact the silence on here has been so deafening I have already cancelled my plans to attend 420 next year since money is no longer a problem for me and I had really been looking forward to attending but not at this point I really see no need to go and spend money just to be avoided or insulted.
I was even to the point I had about decided to drop this whole website altogether one night when sonicblue made an excellent post about the FDA about a week ago I was working on a serious reply to add to his post one night about pharmaceutical research and the governments approved death rates for each of their drugs that I was in the midst of writing when I just up and decided what's the use on here anymore the ones who are not attacking are running for cover so why waste my time anymore I have so many people I want to help and only so much time and so many resources it just did not seem worth the effort on here anymore so I trashed the post got off here for a few days then I finally got on here today to see if anymore negative abuse had been hurled and was surprised to find Mark_D's post if nothing else it made me wonder if I should not maybe give things more time.
I would have never made that post anyway if I had not been born in an area of NC that those things I spoke about go on quite often on a regular basis in the deep forest as well as behind closed doors throughout my home town I should know I walked those forest enough and came across it and my dads side of the family was involved in it one of many reasons I avoided them that plus 3 attempts on my life 2 as a child 1 as an adult by my dad and each was covered up and not so much as a cop ever called so not counting all the other attempts on my life as a teenager and adult from just plain making bad choices and being in bad places in my past I had a really unusual upbringing with some kin being christian others outlaws and pagans on my mothers side and then very hard core extremist pagans and some hard core satanist on my dads side.
It's a miracle I survived growing up to survive all the stuff being an adult.I can tell you all there was a great many reasons besides just the corrupt sheriffs dept the organized crime along with an abundance of violent rednecks that made me want to run from that place the first real chance I ever had.
Is it any wonder I would want someone to avoid all that.......bad enough those born into it but the ones who join willingly just because they have a fascination and then by the time they realize what they are a part of it is far to late for most to just up and quit........I guess I just had it on my mind recently because of running head on into the problem again and knowing what is still happening to plenty of young people.
Even though I enjoyed a great deal of fantasy and sci-fi growing up trying to escape my childhood it never made me want join anything dangerous but I still know there are always a few who do make that bad choice and I can not help but feel for them I just have no idea how to help stop them from making such a bad choice when nobody is warning them and everyone pretends there is no problem at all and no matter how small the numbers maybe on a worldwide bases still each life is precious no matter what some may think.
I do not care if my view is not popular my only intent is to try and think of a way to help and with the over popular attitude these days not just on this one subject but on many subjects of just pretending there is no problem at all or just hoping problems go away on their own or the problem will fix itself in time is it any wonder our world is in such a mess.
Sorry folks if you don't like me anymore but I can not help but care not just because it is the right thing to do about a great long list of things that I really always have cared about but I had no means to do anything about but also because "I USE TO BE THE VICTIM"...."BUT NO LONGER" and I thank My God and I Love Him and now that my life has been spared once again and this time I have been healed of everything that was ever wrong with me including 4 decades of emotional scars and torment along with all the long list of physical disabilities I have been healed of by My God so completely that people are noticing everywhere and it is giving me the chance and opportunity to finally help like I wish I could have done long ago and like I always wished so desperately somebody would do for me all those long decades.
Not sure yet if I will keep coming back on here but I wanted to explain my reasons why to the people I once had such a great fondness for and to mainly thank the one person who stood up for my right to voice my opinion if by some wild chance we ever meet Mark_D I will have to try and get you seriously stoned.
I guess if nothing else has been accomplished I can now finally talk openly about things I kept hidden throughout my life and that is a plus in the work that I am about. 
In fact the silence on here has been so deafening I have already cancelled my plans to attend 420 next year since money is no longer a problem for me and I had really been looking forward to attending but not at this point I really see no need to go and spend money just to be avoided or insulted.
I was even to the point I had about decided to drop this whole website altogether one night when sonicblue made an excellent post about the FDA about a week ago I was working on a serious reply to add to his post one night about pharmaceutical research and the governments approved death rates for each of their drugs that I was in the midst of writing when I just up and decided what's the use on here anymore the ones who are not attacking are running for cover so why waste my time anymore I have so many people I want to help and only so much time and so many resources it just did not seem worth the effort on here anymore so I trashed the post got off here for a few days then I finally got on here today to see if anymore negative abuse had been hurled and was surprised to find Mark_D's post if nothing else it made me wonder if I should not maybe give things more time.
I would have never made that post anyway if I had not been born in an area of NC that those things I spoke about go on quite often on a regular basis in the deep forest as well as behind closed doors throughout my home town I should know I walked those forest enough and came across it and my dads side of the family was involved in it one of many reasons I avoided them that plus 3 attempts on my life 2 as a child 1 as an adult by my dad and each was covered up and not so much as a cop ever called so not counting all the other attempts on my life as a teenager and adult from just plain making bad choices and being in bad places in my past I had a really unusual upbringing with some kin being christian others outlaws and pagans on my mothers side and then very hard core extremist pagans and some hard core satanist on my dads side.
It's a miracle I survived growing up to survive all the stuff being an adult.I can tell you all there was a great many reasons besides just the corrupt sheriffs dept the organized crime along with an abundance of violent rednecks that made me want to run from that place the first real chance I ever had.
Is it any wonder I would want someone to avoid all that.......bad enough those born into it but the ones who join willingly just because they have a fascination and then by the time they realize what they are a part of it is far to late for most to just up and quit........I guess I just had it on my mind recently because of running head on into the problem again and knowing what is still happening to plenty of young people.
Even though I enjoyed a great deal of fantasy and sci-fi growing up trying to escape my childhood it never made me want join anything dangerous but I still know there are always a few who do make that bad choice and I can not help but feel for them I just have no idea how to help stop them from making such a bad choice when nobody is warning them and everyone pretends there is no problem at all and no matter how small the numbers maybe on a worldwide bases still each life is precious no matter what some may think.
I do not care if my view is not popular my only intent is to try and think of a way to help and with the over popular attitude these days not just on this one subject but on many subjects of just pretending there is no problem at all or just hoping problems go away on their own or the problem will fix itself in time is it any wonder our world is in such a mess.
Sorry folks if you don't like me anymore but I can not help but care not just because it is the right thing to do about a great long list of things that I really always have cared about but I had no means to do anything about but also because "I USE TO BE THE VICTIM"...."BUT NO LONGER" and I thank My God and I Love Him and now that my life has been spared once again and this time I have been healed of everything that was ever wrong with me including 4 decades of emotional scars and torment along with all the long list of physical disabilities I have been healed of by My God so completely that people are noticing everywhere and it is giving me the chance and opportunity to finally help like I wish I could have done long ago and like I always wished so desperately somebody would do for me all those long decades.
Not sure yet if I will keep coming back on here but I wanted to explain my reasons why to the people I once had such a great fondness for and to mainly thank the one person who stood up for my right to voice my opinion if by some wild chance we ever meet Mark_D I will have to try and get you seriously stoned.
I guess if nothing else has been accomplished I can now finally talk openly about things I kept hidden throughout my life and that is a plus in the work that I am about.
This is a place to discuss Amsterdam and our favorite recreational drug, not a place for the days of our lives style drama. Finally, if anything our choice in substance brings people together. We might have different points of view, but that doesn't mean I would hesitate to pass the blunt your way. 
Cheer up AB, if life is dealing you the hardships you describe, you are coming out ahead.